1. Story behind the poem

I am going through some things

I was hoping I could have Just a moment,

To experience salvation

Walking in the light

Never to leave the Lord’s side

A darkness is looming over me,

The overcast fogging me in confusion,

Desperate, I am Praying,

‘Dear God, Why do I keep walking away from you?’

I seek the world over your worth,

I desire the flash and not the spirit,

It keeps me prisoner to feelings,

I die everyday for the wrong reasons,

I feel a rot on the inside,

I only taste freedom momentarily,

As if I only fed on a tiny morsel!’

‘I willingly go back into the same cage,

From which you have just set me free,

And then wonder,

Why do I suffer?

These unnecessary plights?’

Blessed everyday

Yet, only to wake up hopeless,

Like a rabbit, digging deeper

Into a grave I was never meant to enter,

When you take me out,

My habits have me entrenched

Back in to the deep

Six feet?

More like sixty feet under!

I am scared,

I cannot even see the light anymore,

A glimpse of it, Only short lived

The hand reaching in,

To get me out of here!

I bat away

‘Nope! I like it here! I crave being here! Delighting in the ecstasy, of what it feels like, to be swaddled by these walls!’

They are way high above my head,

What if I keep digging?

And they collapse on me?

Set me free from this

Set me free for peace

Set me free from me,

If that is what it takes,

Help me dig my way out

Out of this whole

This whole I have dug

In here, it is cold

I no longer have a space to be bold

My confidence is waning,

It has become apparent that I am in isolation

I don’t wish to die before living,

Please Lord, Bring me Salvation!

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